Pure Vanilla - Boy howdy. We know there's a lot going on here. Pav would absolutely be able to see the violence and sadism he inflicted on Pure Vanilla back in Beast-Yeast. His absolutely deranged obsession with him, his tormenting in an attempt to break him as a person, and remold him into a Cookie of Deceit. His glee at Truthless' offer of becoming one and the way they had merged their souls together before Vanilla awakened and friendzoned him.
Their souls had remained entangled, even after their breakup. When Shadow Milk turned up in sticks that remained, though initially he was violent towards Truthless, he settled down, thinking he might try and get Truthless back- no he Awakened again anyway, and while Shadow Milk felt BETRAYED x2, Vanilla remained stubborn on extending his hand. SM eventually caved, and they completely merged their souls back together. They were disgustingly in love but it was still unhealthy and toxic in places. Shadow Milk was working towards becoming better while Vanilla slowly slipped more into derangement. They were a swinging pendulum of sanity, but like. SM was happy. He felt loved. And then Vanilla died and it was like his heart and soul had been ripped to pieces. His desperation at getting him back lead to him challenging the Forest and he was killed for it. His grief is a well that threatens to spill over at anytime. He's slowly been picking up the pieces, trying to find meaning in the life he is still living.
White Lily - An all consuming burning hatred for her is where they started. The Guardian, their jailor. A mockery of freedome, the half-a-cookie. He had goaded her into attacking him once to try and hurt Vanilla (it didn't work)
Shadow Milk learned that his past self was incredibly close friends with her, and he had sacrificed everything to try and bring back both Lily and Percy (PV's past self), which lead him to look at Lily in a different light. They didn't truly start to become close until PV's death, when the two of them stricken with grief had no one but each other to cling to in order to keep going.
Their relationship is complicated and messy, but there is genuine affection there now, even if it makes him feel weird.
Candy Apple & Black Sapphire - Those are his minions! They're his, obviously, but his emotions towards them are rather lacking. He made them, sure, but he almost treats them more like toys than people. He does think of them from time to time here in Sticks, but his feelings are lukewarm-to-complicated. A little wary of the idea of them showing up and seeing how their Beloved Master has changed. He doesn't like thinking about it.
The Other Beasts - HOW COMPLICATED. His friends, his colleagues, his fellow Beasts. How lovely is it that they all fell one after another, wallowed with him in corruption and madness, and then set the world ablaze. Was Shadow Milk the first or the last to fall? Was he the first to corrupt? Did he tell the first lies that dominoed the world into chaos? Did he cultivate the rumors about the treasures in Flours caccoon? Who knows! Shadow Milk adores the other Beasts, but that adoration is sinister and possessive. He loves the idea of them and them being his, but his actual interpersonal relationships with them seeeeeem. Hm.
this is something else Shadow Milk does not like thinking about now that he is saner. Eternal Sugar is also kind of on his shitlist right now thanks to Pavlova. OOPS
Pavlova - I know you said he can't see relationships regarding himself but lets put it here for completions sake. He recalls helping ES with baking this child, and he remembers how the Fount was his father and was fond of him. Shadow Milk is conflicted with how much of that is even him vs the Fount and while Pav seems absolutely willing to treat him just as he did before, he feels like the literal wolf in sheep's clothing.
His love is dangerous, how long before it hurts Pav in the same way Sugar has?
Sticks
This man has been such a raging dumpster fire over his soul-mate bullshit that he hasn't quite gotten to the point of forming strong attachments outside of his little bubble. There's some people of interest that Pav might pick up on, like Mafuyu, Ain, Ryan and Min-gi (they're hilarious), Mamika, but those are all very small connections thus far.
Beliefs they hold: Shadow Milk describes himself as a hollow shell, a mask with nothing behind it. He has felt himself lost and adrift here even before losing Vanilla, and has been struggling to grapple with his identity. He proclaimed to the Moon Goddess that Shadow Milk Cookie was dead, just as the Fount of Knowledge is, and that is even more true now that Vanilla is gone. Who he is now, he's not sure.
He's in steep denial about how much of the Fount is still alive within him, and it's easy to see that angry aversion is fear of being hurt. Fear of becoming that lonely and miserable again.
He has also promised Vanilla to never call himself a monster again, though he does still feel as though he is, he goes out of his way to never use that word when describing himself.
How does their heart look: Dark blue stained glass with many cracks in it. It radiates an almost black aura, something twisted and dangerous, and its strings are wrapped tightly around it, they pull taut to whoever they might be attached to, though some of them are torn, bleeding.
Beneath that frightening exterior there is a light, deep within. Pavlova will have to look hard to see it, but it's there. A beacon of light amidst the darkness, that grows ever brighter, day-by-day
Additional considerations: NA
May I contact for more info: You know where my DMs are
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Pure Vanilla - Boy howdy. We know there's a lot going on here. Pav would absolutely be able to see the violence and sadism he inflicted on Pure Vanilla back in Beast-Yeast. His absolutely deranged obsession with him, his tormenting in an attempt to break him as a person, and remold him into a Cookie of Deceit. His glee at Truthless' offer of becoming one and the way they had merged their souls together before Vanilla awakened and friendzoned him.
Their souls had remained entangled, even after their breakup. When Shadow Milk turned up in sticks that remained, though initially he was violent towards Truthless, he settled down, thinking he might try and get Truthless back- no he Awakened again anyway, and while Shadow Milk felt BETRAYED x2, Vanilla remained stubborn on extending his hand. SM eventually caved, and they completely merged their souls back together. They were disgustingly in love but it was still unhealthy and toxic in places. Shadow Milk was working towards becoming better while Vanilla slowly slipped more into derangement. They were a swinging pendulum of sanity, but like. SM was happy. He felt loved. And then Vanilla died and it was like his heart and soul had been ripped to pieces. His desperation at getting him back lead to him challenging the Forest and he was killed for it. His grief is a well that threatens to spill over at anytime. He's slowly been picking up the pieces, trying to find meaning in the life he is still living.
White Lily - An all consuming burning hatred for her is where they started. The Guardian, their jailor. A mockery of freedome, the half-a-cookie. He had goaded her into attacking him once to try and hurt Vanilla (it didn't work)
Shadow Milk learned that his past self was incredibly close friends with her, and he had sacrificed everything to try and bring back both Lily and Percy (PV's past self), which lead him to look at Lily in a different light. They didn't truly start to become close until PV's death, when the two of them stricken with grief had no one but each other to cling to in order to keep going.
Their relationship is complicated and messy, but there is genuine affection there now, even if it makes him feel weird.
Candy Apple & Black Sapphire - Those are his minions! They're his, obviously, but his emotions towards them are rather lacking. He made them, sure, but he almost treats them more like toys than people. He does think of them from time to time here in Sticks, but his feelings are lukewarm-to-complicated. A little wary of the idea of them showing up and seeing how their Beloved Master has changed. He doesn't like thinking about it.
The Other Beasts - HOW COMPLICATED. His friends, his colleagues, his fellow Beasts. How lovely is it that they all fell one after another, wallowed with him in corruption and madness, and then set the world ablaze. Was Shadow Milk the first or the last to fall? Was he the first to corrupt? Did he tell the first lies that dominoed the world into chaos? Did he cultivate the rumors about the treasures in Flours caccoon? Who knows! Shadow Milk adores the other Beasts, but that adoration is sinister and possessive. He loves the idea of them and them being his, but his actual interpersonal relationships with them seeeeeem. Hm.
this is something else Shadow Milk does not like thinking about now that he is saner. Eternal Sugar is also kind of on his shitlist right now thanks to Pavlova. OOPS
Pavlova - I know you said he can't see relationships regarding himself but lets put it here for completions sake. He recalls helping ES with baking this child, and he remembers how the Fount was his father and was fond of him. Shadow Milk is conflicted with how much of that is even him vs the Fount and while Pav seems absolutely willing to treat him just as he did before, he feels like the literal wolf in sheep's clothing.
His love is dangerous, how long before it hurts Pav in the same way Sugar has?
Sticks
This man has been such a raging dumpster fire over his soul-mate bullshit that he hasn't quite gotten to the point of forming strong attachments outside of his little bubble. There's some people of interest that Pav might pick up on, like Mafuyu, Ain, Ryan and Min-gi (they're hilarious), Mamika, but those are all very small connections thus far.
Beliefs they hold: Shadow Milk describes himself as a hollow shell, a mask with nothing behind it. He has felt himself lost and adrift here even before losing Vanilla, and has been struggling to grapple with his identity. He proclaimed to the Moon Goddess that Shadow Milk Cookie was dead, just as the Fount of Knowledge is, and that is even more true now that Vanilla is gone. Who he is now, he's not sure.
He's in steep denial about how much of the Fount is still alive within him, and it's easy to see that angry aversion is fear of being hurt. Fear of becoming that lonely and miserable again.
He has also promised Vanilla to never call himself a monster again, though he does still feel as though he is, he goes out of his way to never use that word when describing himself.
Tropes: TOXIC LOVE, obsessive love, yandere, enemies to lovers, attempted redemption arc
How does their heart look: Dark blue stained glass with many cracks in it. It radiates an almost black aura, something twisted and dangerous, and its strings are wrapped tightly around it, they pull taut to whoever they might be attached to, though some of them are torn, bleeding.
Beneath that frightening exterior there is a light, deep within. Pavlova will have to look hard to see it, but it's there. A beacon of light amidst the darkness, that grows ever brighter, day-by-day
Additional considerations: NA
May I contact for more info: You know where my DMs are